Many have had profound moments of awakening where Reality has been revealed in the most extraordinary way. It is often the case that when the event itself is over, and everything seems to have returned to a more ordinary state, there is a feeling of loss and disappointment. The ego was very happy to assume the identity of being 'enlightened', and now it suffers the consequences. It grasps at what it has identified as enlightenment, which was actually only phenomena, something which can be symptomatic of enlightenment, though is not the Realisation Itself. Phenomena, as with all things is fleeting in nature, and soon passes. While there is attachment to this it is inevitable that suffering will ensue.

Consequently those who find themselves living in the shadow of their own enlightenment experience, spend the present opportunity in nostalgic reminiscence of past glory or pondering over its retrieval. The aspirants attachment to spiritual experience both in the context of previous states of illumination long since departed, and the perpetual strategy to prepare fertile ground for future spiritual experiences to occur, is the primary fundamental error which inhibits true realisation in the present.
Whatever you have perceived as 'lost' was never yours nor was it True.

Only that which remains in unqualified radiance is True. What you are now and always have been, This is True. This is all that has any value in this sense. You must withdraw all investment in the past and future and be fully available, present, here and now. Open to This Now.

Awakening does not necessarily terminate the tendency to create karmas, rather it reveals That which is beyond karmas. Karmas come and go, this is their nature, allow them to do so without resistance. Regardless of what is currently occurring, total satisfaction is only ever known by the one established in what remains.